2018 Health Goals

Ahhhh….a new year is upon us! A time to set new goals and work towards them. And boy am I glad it’s January! December whooped my butt. I was sick for a good part of it, and slacked off working out daily. And then…My boyfriend and I broke up. Hence the last couple really emotional posts. I didn’t have energy or desire to workout or get out of bed early. So this month, I’m hitting reset and reevaluating how to reach my health goals.

I really need to build my immune system, increase flexibility, strengthen my muscles and also the usual loose 17 pounds. I plan on having a killer summer bod!

I am starting school up again part-time this month, and with working full-time + part time 3 nights a week, classes 2 nights a week, and volunteering at my church, I think I need to be realistic with my workout intentions.

So without further ado! I present to you (drumroll) my:

January 2018 Health Goals:

  • Run 3 times a week
  • Do Yoga, weight lifting, or body weight exercises 1 day a week
  • Drink green juice or smoothies 3 times a week
  • Eat whole healthy foods
  • Get good quality sleep every night
  • Practice self-love and de-stressing


I feel like the last two are often overlooked in health goals, cause I know I forget about them. This month, I’m going to focus on taking long showers before bed, sipping tea and reading, lighting candles in the evenings, writing more, and praying.

I have started a Gratitude Journal this year. It’s a journal that everyday you write down 5 things you’re grateful for that day. I haven’t decided if I will fill it out in the morning or the evening, so far it’s been mornings, except for today. But I want to become more grateful this year. I want to appreciate the small things and the big things.

I’m thankful that I started this little blog. It’s amazing how freeing it is to get your thoughts written down and see them in front of you, it’s calming and exciting to me. Anyway, I’ll wrap up this post before it gets too long!!!





I welcome the new year with open arms!

I am ready for change.

I am ready for a new start.

I am ready to push myself beyond my comfort zone.

I am ready to explore, learn, and grow.

I am ready to mature.

I am ready for the journey.

I am ready to embrace each and every day.

I am grateful to be alive.

I am grateful to be loved.

I am grateful!

Heartbreak Mantra

Writer Note: This is very different from anything I have posted. It is personal and emotional and raw. It’s a jot by me that I needed to get out. Thank you for letting me be real and emotional and a mess. I understand if you skip over it or choose not to read.

It’s okay to let myself feel sad and cry.

It’s okay to feel moments of happiness.

It’s okay to want to send him every funny thing I see.

It’s okay to pray for him.

It’s okay to wonder if I’ll ever see him again.

It’s okay to wish he could hold me while I cry.

It’s okay to miss the game nights, ice cream runs, movie nights, and painting nights.

It’s okay to miss his friendship.

It’s okay to miss loving him.

It’s okay to feel alone.

It’s okay to talk about my feelings with anyone that will listen.

It’s okay to write.

It’s okay to be vulnerable.

It’s okay to be needy.

It’s okay to not want to date for a really long time.

It’s okay to miss his dog!

It’s not okay to stuff my emotions deep down inside and try to act perfect and okay.

It’s not okay to hide how I feel all the time.

It’s not okay to stay in bed every free moment and cry.

It’s not okay to text him every time I want to.

It’s not okay to blame myself or tell myself I deserve pain.

It’s not okay to think I have nothing to live for anymore.

I must heal, I must allow myself to mourn, I must give both of us time to mend our broken hearts, I must focus on me, I must focus on the reasons he wasn’t perfect, I can’t always dwell on the perfectly awesome times we had, else I’ll never get over it.

No, I’m not okay. My heart has been broken. I gave it away and it was given back with a hole in it where you used to be. And yet you’re still in my heart. I still love you. Part of me knows I always will. Maybe over time it will become a love like I have for my closest friends. But I don’t think it ever goes away completely. And I don’t think I ever want it to. The last couple years I have grown, I have changed. I am a better person because of you. I know what I deserve. I will not settle. I will continue to work on me. And I will wait. I will wait for what I know God has in place for me. Maybe down the road it will be you, and I would rejoice oh so much if that is true. But maybe it’s not. And regardless I will be okay. I will continue this journey I’m on, without you by my side.

My prayer for you is that you know all this, that you go easy on yourself, that you continue to grow, that someday you open up and let someone love you and that you love them back. There is true love out there. It’s not perfect, it’s messy, it can be ugly, but it can also be beautiful, it can be perfect for you, it can be FOREVER.

“…For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you,” declares the LORD…                 Jeremiah 29:11-14a




I’m down…and not upset

My posting schedule has been all whacked lately…but I’m not too upset about it. This is my creative outlet and while I like structure and order…I can’t be too strict else it will become a chore and I will dread it! Anyway…on to the good news!!!

Since I took a break from the gym to recover from being sick and gain back my strength, I’ve also slacked off on my strict diet. I let myself eat sweets and whatever I wanted. I didn’t go crazy…usually it was one unhealthy meal a day. I was really worried I had gained back the weight I had worked so hard to lose.

I weighed myself this morning….and HOLY SMOKES…I was down .2 ounces. That isn’t a lot AT ALL. But I’m just happy I maintained my weight. It encouraged me to keep going and finish this year strong.

I’m going shopping this evening for meal prep and going to eat healthy and return to daily running. I took a break because I needed it…but now I’m back and more determined than ever!!



Sick Life For Daysss

So I have been sick for the past week!!!! I started feeling sick on Monday and skipped my normal workout since I felt so bad. The next day however I went to the gym and tried to run. I got almost through my routine and had to stop because I felt really weird, my whole head was fuzzy and I wasn’t in pain, but I felt like I could pass out. I called it a workout and went to work. The next day I worked out in the evening, and again wasn’t able to finish my routine, because I was short of breath (coughing and congestion).

On Thursday, I felt awful!! I left work early and took an afternoon nap, but I had to work in the evening. I barely made it through my shift. I skipped my workout Thursday and decided that maybe I was pushing my body too much. I need to rest and recover, not push myself to run further than I have before. So I didn’t work out today and I don’t plan on it tomorrow. I will start fresh on Monday.

I refuse to feel bad about this little set back, I will listen to my body and decide what is best for me overall! I will be repeating this running week routine, so it will set me back a week…but at least I’m not giving up completely. I’m still determined to finish the year strong and begin the new year healthy and fit!


Dear Me

I will continue to push towards my goals.

I won’t stop until I have achieved them.

When I have achieved them, I will set new goals.

I will continue to better myself.

I will grow.

I will learn.

I will force myself to wake up early, until it becomes habit.

I will run until I can run a 5k without stopping.

I will eat healthy to fuel my body.

I will be kind to myself when I fail.

I will have visible abs one day. 😉

I will love myself every step along the journey.

I won’t give up!



Week 2 Check-in

It’s been 2 weeks!!! Two WHOLE weeks! And I’ve made it through the most food heavy holiday of the year! I’m feeling very excited, and determined to push through this week. I think it’s going to be a little difficult since I was able to sleep in a couple days this past week and let myself indulge in some sweets this weekend as well.

Here is my Week 2 update goal related:

  1. I have been SO consistent with my running! I went to the gym 6 days this week. Even on Thanksgiving morning, I ran before starting all the preparation for dinner. I am up to running/walking a little over 2 miles in 30 minutes. The way the program works that I am following, you slowly build your way up to running longer and walking less. This week the longest I ran was 1 1/2 minutes with 2 minute rests. After three days of running on a level treadmill, I bumped up the incline to make it a little harder. I have started this running program before, but never finished it, so I’m excited to push my body and see how far and long I can run!
  2. I started off the week strong with drinking water. While I’m at work I make sure I have a bottle of water at my desk all day. It is a little more difficult on the weekends when I’m running around and don’t always have water available. I could tell the difference on Sunday when I didn’t drink enough water. I had a headache, my skin was dry, and I felt sluggish. I gave up coffee for a little over a week, and on Thanksgiving allowed myself to drink some! It was AMAZING! I switched over to hot tea during the week. It’s been an adjustment (MAJOR understatement), but I feel better that I am not drinking sugary, chemically creamers.
  3. Fat be gone!!! I was pleasantly surprised that I lost weight again this week and even maintained it over Thanksgiving. Everyday right before my workout I weigh in and if I’ve lost weight I do a little victory dance right there in the locker room at the gym. Usually no one is watching.
  4. Healthy eating has gotten relatively easier this week. I’m loving my green protein smoothies in the mornings! I was running low on protein and had to buy a new tub! Yay! I baked chicken in the beginning of the week and prepared some brown rice. I’ve been rotating between eating chicken, rice, and peas and large green salads with chopped chicken. I treated Thanksgiving as one day and let myself eat a little of everything, because I knew on Friday I would be right back on track. But Saturday and Sunday I slipped up a little bit. I normally wouldn’t care, because I want to allow myself wiggle room to eat whatever I want, but I ate some food at work on Saturday, because it was a particularly challenging shift. I don’t like the fact that I associated food as comfort, but that’s what I want when I’m upset! Then on Sunday we got our Christmas Tree and I drank a latte on the drive to the Tree Farm. I also had a slice of pie under the twinkling lights that evening. This week I’m promising myself I will be better!!!

One more week is left in November and I can’t wait for December 1st to update my monthly goals. I will be setting new goals on Dec. 1st and then on Dec. 4th I’ll go back and give my normal post week update based on November goals.


Happy Thanksgiving

I’m going to be working and then cooking all day today! From my little corner of the web, I would like to wish you all a very Happy Thanksgiving! Whether you are with family, friends, or by yourself with your fur baby, find something to be thankful for in the midst of the busyness.

A few of the many things I am thankful for:

God’s constant Mercy, Love, and Faithfulness

My Family

My boyfriend

My friends

My health

My readers (It may not seem like much, but I am grateful if even one person takes the time to read my posts)

This blog for keeping me accountable, and giving me a place to express myself

Have a Happy Thanksgiving tomorrow! I’ll be back blogging on Monday.




Plan for Success

Diets don’t work long-term. Don’t get me wrong, dieting can be a great tool if you’re trying to lose weight or get to a certain size or look a certain way….but the whole concept of dieting can be dangerous and unhealthy. I prefer to change my lifestyle and meal plan to something I can continue to incorporate for the rest of my life. That allows me to be flexible, without “breaking” my diet.

That being said, the holidays are on us and you are going to be tempted by decadent sights and smells. Here’s my advice to everyone trying to eat healthy.

Plan, Plan, Plan. Write down all of your holiday parties and events. Then decide which ones you want to splurge at and which ones you don’t. Then plan accordingly. If it’s a snack/drinking party, you can eat before you get there and avoid the desserts and unhealthy snacks. If it’s a dinner party, you’re going to have to eat or it will be rude to the host. Stick to your plan! If you are allowing yourself to splurge, enjoy it and don’t feel guilty, you’ve earned this! If you told yourself you weren’t going to eat/drink at that particularly party…don’t give in. You will regret it later anyway, and regret never looks good on anyone.

Stick to one plate/drink! This one is important. If you gave yourself permission to splurge. Take small portions and don’t go back for seconds. Have one drink and then switch to water for the rest of the night. There is nothing wrong with drinking water while everyone else is drinking cocktails or soda.

Workout! Even if you are straying from your eating habits during the holidays. Don’t stop working out! Stick to your workout schedule or fit workouts in when you can…but don’t stop completely. You will have that much harder of a time getting back in the gym after the holidays if you do! My gym is open Thanksgiving morning and I plan on taking full advantage of that and getting a run in before my family comes over. I’ll have my normal protein shake in the morning and then I’ll allow myself to eat some yummy food without one ounce of guilt!

Have Fun! Most importantly have a good time. Don’t be that person at a party that stares at everyone else drinking while having a pity-party and letting everyone know you’re “being good” “being healthy”. I’ve been guilty of this before, and this year I’m going to change my attitude and hopefully be a more fun person to be around!